Interesting feelings today after 11 days of calorie deficit and controlling my cravings, hunger and entering a dieting phase. A bigger deficit by quite a bit than I normally would have if I were 20 weeks out from a show.
I have feelings that I felt pre contest. My wife commented on my face pulling in, all classical signs of dieting for me.
I now feel like I don't want to stop dieting, I want to keep losing weight. If I was to stop the calorie deficit, how would I cope with stopping this without achieving an end goal. What is my end goal? And without stepping onstage, how can I be satisfied with the outcome with no finale?
Can I go back to being heavier like I was with no guilt because I stopped pushing?
All disordered thoughts. I don't have the answers, and I don't know if extreme dieting plays a major role on eating behaviours in the long run.
I have feelings that I felt pre contest. My wife commented on my face pulling in, all classical signs of dieting for me.
I now feel like I don't want to stop dieting, I want to keep losing weight. If I was to stop the calorie deficit, how would I cope with stopping this without achieving an end goal. What is my end goal? And without stepping onstage, how can I be satisfied with the outcome with no finale?
Can I go back to being heavier like I was with no guilt because I stopped pushing?
All disordered thoughts. I don't have the answers, and I don't know if extreme dieting plays a major role on eating behaviours in the long run.
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