Walking Beast's Journal

[Walking Beast]

Also in the past I allowed myself to believe that I could not make new gains without hormones. So whenever I went off I became lax with my eating and demotivated. This was all due to perspective and not the reality. Once I blocked that thought out of my mind, and started eating as if I was on, with the usual brutal high volume training (training has to be wild while off to get results for me), the size started to come back without hormones. It requires a very consistant heavy eating though. It wont work otherwise. Its those extra one or two meals that Im too tired to eat, that I have to eat every day, sometimes 3 meals back to back, in order to push those limits without hormones. Even with I need to do that to really push beyond where Im at.

My metabolism is much slower now. So there is no reason why I cant gain without hormones if I am consistant with force feeding and the usual training. If you believe that you cant do that shit, you definately wont, I find. The first 10 years I did without hormones. After that it was very little on and off use. So most of my results are without.

KILL THAT SHIT !!

[danthemanbatman]

Yes, it bores the fuck out of me. Now with my slow metabolism it is a slow process and since I dont know what Im doing when it comes to leaning, I often lose muscle first it seems.

Ive never really experimented much with trying to lean out. The last few years is when my metabolism started to slow down, so that was newer.

Definately with the right supplementation I could probably build some muscle while leaning. However if I was on then I would be much more tempted to just add new muscle and force feed heavily. It would be good if I cleaned shit up though and rebuilt.

I dont have a clear plan now and beat up as fuck. I hit my numbers for my yearly measurement charts, which I usually take in april or may, posted a few pages back. So that gives me a year to hit new size numbers. Which means now I will take shit a little easy and to rest mind and body. Something I didnt do in the past. Then when the time is right I will get in a long stretch of killings before the next break.

Just taking it by the day for now.

KILLLLLLL THAT SHIT !!

Honestly bro, would be interesting to see how dense you are leaned out (nohomo). You probably have insane dense muscular structure/crazy striations leaned out. I'd say 190-195 and you'd be diced. You just have to figure a diet out that keeps energy levels high enough while losing fat. You already have the workout/reppage in place.

[Walking Beast]

Honestly bro, would be interesting to see how dense you are leaned out (nohomo). You probably have insane dense muscular structure/crazy striations leaned out. I'd say 190-195 and you'd be diced. You just have to figure a diet out that keeps energy levels high enough while losing fat. You already have the workout/reppage in place.

Appreciate that shit brother

It would be worth doing at some point, just to rebuild from a cleaner slate. Though if I continued to bulk the way I usually do the sloppy weight may all come back again quickly. Hopefully it would buy me some time. Otherwise it would be a waste to do.

Right now is basically a break for me. Not giving a fuck about eating, training at the moment. After some time I will get back into shit.

KEEP KILLIN THAT SHIT !!

[danthemanbatman]

Appreciate that shit brother

It would be worth doing at some point, just to rebuild from a cleaner slate. Though if I continued to bulk the way I usually do the sloppy weight may all come back again quickly. Hopefully it would buy me some time. Otherwise it would be a waste to do.

Right now is basically a break for me. Not giving a fuck about eating, training at the moment. After some time I will get back into shit.

KEEP KILLIN THAT SHIT !!

Get lean, my nagger.

[Walking Beast]

Get lean, my nagger.

Today I think Ill fuck around with some bench. Will be lighter as a result of eating when I feel like it, being sick. No consistant training right now. Alot of overall pain and exhaustion. Just some chest for fun

Will see where my reps are at with the 225 and possibly higher.

KILL THAT SHIT !!

[danthemanbatman]

Today I think Ill fuck around with some bench. Will be lighter as a result of eating when I feel like it, being sick. No consistant training right now. Alot of overall pain and exhaustion. Just some chest for fun

Will see where my reps are at with the 225 and possibly higher.

KILL THAT SHIT !!

Werd. Third day back today. Gotta do that 2.7 mile walk first. They close at 1. Hate holidays. Still doin full body. Dips today for chest.

[Walking Beast]

Werd. Third day back today. Gotta do that 2.7 mile walk first. They close at 1. Hate holidays. Still doin full body. Dips today for chest.

What holiday is today? I never know when that shit hits. Got lucky then. Just finished

KILL SHIT !!

[Walking Beast]

Chest and delts


100 mg tramadol pre workout, 1 scoop mr hyde, havent been taking creatine or beta alanine

Considering trying Lean Beef Aminos as my main protein source and eat my carbs. This may be useful as its become much harder to digest all this food with the acid issues. They seem to have potential. Wont know until I test it myself. The collagen is said to help the joints and cartiledge, tendon, but will see for myself .

Only took 3 days off from my last chest session. So wasnt recovered at all, joint wise. Shoulders very tight. Elbows felt a little better today.

Going to switch shit up again. I think I will switch over to full range pause reps for a while on the bench. The high rep shit fucks with elbows more, and the pause reps get a more deliberate consistant tension that would be good to switch to for a while.

Will likely still hit a few rep out ballistic sets. Maybe one with 225 to start, then switch to pause reps. Want to do something different and joints are getting torn to hell. Also my two ruptured disks in neck are giving alot of tightness, added numbness, so im trying to manage that shit as well.

Alot of acid in throat has been fucking up my diet. Makes it hard as hell to eat. Extreme exhaustion as well and been sick for over a week. Now when I get sick its for atleast 2 weeks. It used to be 3 days and at the end of the year. Shows that my whole system is torn to hell, but thats nothing new. I have to work around it.


I get almost no rest from sleep as well, but its been this way for a while now.

I havent decided yet if Ill be back into the routine this week yet. I started new this week by doing chest on monday. Will take some days off and see how I feel. I have to split the shit up now for recovery. Doing shit back to back will fuck me up.

Hardly ate for a while now. Sickness and not giving a fuck. May start again this week, like I said.

Im training now for growth and right now I can back off or continue. Will depend how shit feels. I can hit an easy personal record with 315 for 7 pause reps. Even though Ive done 23 reps with 315 it was fast ballistic style. At the time I did pause reps it was at that time, however I did it as a finisher after a shitload of sets to failure on bench. So doing it fresh it would be easy to work back up to. I rarely ever did pause reps but I think it will be good to do something new.


There is a major problem with this power rack. The safety bar WILL NOT catch the weight if I fail. This means I will have to roll that shit down my ribs if I miss the rep. So I cant take it to failure now. As you can see my chest is higher than the safety bar, so it doesnt fit my structure. I have one other option. I can try the other location of this gym and see what kind of rack they have. Or I can try to modify this rack with boards or some shit. Ill try the other gym most likely next time and see.

Right now the power rack is completely useless for me. If I have to roll 315 or 335 off my ribs, or more weight, it will cause alot of damage. I rolled 275 last week .

I can deal with being in a less than optimum position but the issue with the bar makes the rack useless as of now. Ill see what I can do next time.

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(222 lbs after previous days meal,stayed up, hardly ate last few weeks)


Flat Bench Press

Bar x 100 plus reps, warm up
135x30 warm up
225x34 (weak as fuck today)
285x4 (pause reps, see vid, nothing special)
300x3 (pause reps, see vid)
315x2 (pause reps, see vid)
275x4 (pause)
225x12 (pause)

The pause reps were full range but couldnt take to failure, the rack is useless right now


Wide Chest Hammer Strength

180x50 (very brief rest pauses, warm up)
270x21 (same)
360x8

No rest til line

410x4
360x4
320x4-5
270x4-5
230x5
180x8
140x10
90x20
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Low volume with chest today and avoided incline dumbbell work, to give neck ruptures a rest

DB laterals

45x25
55x15
75x5
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again same

70x20
55x10
45x10
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again same

45x20
60x10
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Incline press pin loaded machine

245x17 (doesnt feel right)


KILL SHIT

videos below

[Walking Beast]

[Walking Beast]

[danthemanbatman]

Even on a "weak day" dude you're strong as all hell. Just hit 85sx20 incline DBs today brah. Fourth day back. Here's the vid if you're interested. I weigh like 180. Looking to get back over 100 lbs for 20+

http://youtu.be/nI_BKCZrSuQ

[Walking Beast]

Even on a "weak day" dude you're strong as all hell. Just hit 85sx20 incline DBs today brah. Fourth day back. Here's the vid if you're interested. I weigh like 180. Looking to get back over 100 lbs for 20+

http://youtu.be/nI_BKCZrSuQ

Fuckin strong brother! Nice to see you posting videos. Keep that shit coming if youre up to it.

Appreciate that shit.

Youll have no problem hitting those 100s for 20 plus again, being this strong at only 180. It already shows that you are extremely strong for your size, similiar to how ive always been.

I dont know what the fuck Im doing currently. My neck and upper back is so fucking tight from the new neck rupture (I assume), and that is causing some new issues.

So I may be on and off for several weeks or even months. I may just have to make some changes like cutting out incline work for a while, or change shit up. I would like to get back in on thurs or friday but will see how tight my shit is then.

Problem is I only eat for growth when I expect to come back in and train. When shit is uncertain then it becomes very on and off.

Nothing new though. Eventually will strike when its time. I have a year now to hit new results for my charts. Which is usually my main aim.

At the rate of which Ive been accumulating new issues , adaption and break periods are expected at this point. Even so , I never fully get into that mindset because I want to keep fucking KILLING SHIT and pushing things forward. Its taken some mental strengthening for me to be able to put in months of work, then be forced to take breaks, lose all that new progress, and restart not knowing when the next forced break will occur. However that is the only way I can continue this abuse. During my 2 year lay off from ruptures, I learned to value any time I can go in and KILL SHIT. My perspective changed as a result. It gave me a much thicker skin and ability to deal with setbacks in my training. It was a massive mental transformation from going in with an invincible mindset and a programming to KILL at all costs , destroying my body as a result. Its not an on and off switch. Its just ON and thats it. So developing some extra perspective to work around that ON switch has been immensely important in being able to continue training, without completely KILLING MY SHIT.

KEEP KILLIN THAT SHIT !!

[Walking Beast]

Tore up as fuck. Took my painkillers and stims. Going to go fuck up some arms. No plans, but I need that fuckin exorcism

KILLLLLLLL THAT SHIT !!

[Walking Beast]

Arms


150 mg tramadol, 100 right before training, 1 scoop mr hyde, no creatine or beta alanine lately


Weak as fuck today. No surprise. Calories and eating has been very low. Recovering from sickness for the last few weeks and also alot of acid in throat has made it very difficult to get heavy food down. Maybe one or two meals a day at most lately.

Joints and neck stiff as fuck. Real beat up. Just wanted to train for the vent. No set goals right now. Its more of a break period. I tend to train first and then figure shit out later. Even when its for the worse.

Alot of friction on stack today with 300 lbs. Since I bent all the other pins loading plates on them. This one was also bent but for some reason there was alot of friction making the 300 lbs much heavier than usual. It was only with the 300 though. 255 and down seemed fine.

Due to the calorie deficit my bodyweight is coming down. Lost a little muscle it seems too. Maybe slightly leaner. Whatever happens , happens for now.

Low volume and very light, especially with biceps. Just weak and strained as fuck. More of a joint and tendon issue. They go through bad periods. In times when tendon strain is reduced strength shoots back up.

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(219 lbs before meals, trained on empty stomach)


_/---|_ Bar pressdowns (only way I can describe it. )

KILOGRAMS unless otherwise noted for pressdowns


The lighter sets not to failure, but just to burn shit up

no rest til line

35x100
65x40
95x10
45x15 alternating dumbbell curls
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Curved Bar Pressdowns (found the usual bar)

No rest til line

300 lbs x5 (heavy friction on cable today, slowing the movement, only an issue with 300 lbs)
50x10 alternating db curls
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No rest til line

see video

300 lbs x10 (heavy friction issue still present with this weight only)
255 lbs x20
95 kilos x10+
80x10+
65x10+
50x10+
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Didnt feel like counting all the reps for these . Its on video anyway. Was weak today anyway, so just put the + signs

No rest til line

300 lbs x12 (same friction issue with this weight only)
255 lbs x16
95 kilos (back t0 kilos) x10+
80x10+
65x10+
50x10 alternating db curls
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Alt db curls

50x10-12
40x13

No rest til line

pressdowns

300 lbs x 5 (friction)
255x12-15
95 kilos x12
80x10
65x10
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ALt db curls

55x10 (varying speeds with curls )

No rest til line

Pressdowns again

Kilos

95x35
80x10
65x10
50x5 alt db curls, super slow reps
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No rest til line

pressdowns again

95x30
80x20
65x10
50x7 alt db curls, slow
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No rest til line

alt db curls

60x5 slow
45x5
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alt db curl

50x6

Lots of inflammation

KILL SHIT

video below

[Walking Beast]

Back and delts


150 mg tramadol pre workout, 100 mg right before training with 1 scoop mr hyde. No creatine or beta alanine lately


Calorie and protein deficit training. Maintenance mainly. Right now is my version of a break period as mentioned. So I am just training for the exorcism. Eating only when I feel like it. Which often means one meal a day . Got a little leaner and also probably lost some muscle but it doesnt matter now. When its time it comes back quickly with the force feeding.

Though its gotten a little better, still got tightness in upper neck, spine, from the ruptures. Still flared up.

I train and eat when I feel like it now. Shoulders had some inflammation along with everything else. While these weights were light compared to how I trained back in the past, when I was much smaller, they are still tough on my tendons and joints right now. I dont have the ability to back down until my shit is immobilised though. Its the nature of the beast. So I have to be careful to stay out of the gym sometimes. Once Im in its a fucking warzone.

I felt the need to put 325 on the stack just to test myself, even with the pain. I have no discipline for light training. Its not why I do this shit.

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(218 lbs after meal. Low calories and protein for now. Eat when I feel like it)

Hammer Strength Lat Pull over (plate loaded)

no rest til line

180x50
270x5
45x20 db laterals
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no rest til line

320x8
270x8
230x9
180x10
45x20 db laterals
55x10 same
60x10 same
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Lat pulldowns (medium length paralell grip, palms facing)

195x12 holds

No rest til line

255x10 (holds, see video)
45x15 db laterals
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325x7 (see video, 355x17 is best, so nothing special)

Db laterals

50x15

No rest til line

300x3
240x5
195x5
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Shoulder joints causing fatigue

Cybex Lat Pull (palms facing grip)

205x15 long holds

Db laterals

50x20

Lat pulls again

305x20 (see video. Wanted to add plates to stack but was unable to find pin)

No rest til line

see vid

long holds

305x5
255x5
205x5
165x5
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db laterals

no rest til line

45x25
60x10
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no rest til line

see video

70x20
60x10
45x10
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no rest til line

see video. Camera fell after 80s set

80x15
70x10
45x10
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Standing Lat pull overs on cable apparatus, Long bar

KILOGRAMS for these

no rest til line

95x7
65x7-10
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65x25

KILL SHIT

videos below