Walking Beast's Journal

[Walking Beast]

One helluva workout, Beast! I always wanted to ask you..... What is your mind set like after a great workout? Do you feel a rush? A "high" like Arnold used to experience? Angrier? Mored sedated and humbled? Tired and less hostile towards people?

I bought some frozen cod fish for $4.99 for 4 - 4 ounce fillets. I was surprised with how easily the entire 16 ounces went down. Baked. Too easy. And 78 grams of protein and EFA's. Can't beat it. I'm going to give the shrimp a try tomorrow, but I have to be honest, the cod fish was very light and it felt like I didn't even eat anything. Just put some honey mustard on the fillets, and I was very surprised.

Looking forward to your next workout and any vids you can post!!

Appreciate that shit brother!!

I was thankful that I was able to get in some decent volume, despite holding back on going too heavy, since my shoulders are now feeling better. Usually as I go up in weight my shoulders get worse, but for now they are feeling better. That medication really dried out my joints or caused inflammation.

Interesting question. Prior to my major spinal injury which took me out for 2 years, in 2004, I was often fucking depressed and pissed off at myself for missing lifts. Any lift really. I was so obsessed with the progression or reps and weight on every single exercise. Thats part of what drives my progression and the reason why I am able to lift what I can for often very high reps. I was obsessed with doing something that wasnt possible and would psycologically beat the fuck out of myself for failure. I beat the shit out of the power rack one time on deadlift day for missing a lift and trained with a knuckle swollen to golf ball size. I would not leave the gym back then for any reason. This was during the phase of 6 to 8 hour back and deadlift sessions.

After having a 2 year forced time out, to re evaluate things and really appreciate the ability just to lift weights again, I was able to transform my perspective. This made me much more resilient and adaptive, stronger mentally. Thats why now I can roll with injuries and dont get stressed over long breaks anymore. Ive been up and down so many times that its become my normal process to get larger and stronger. It just comes in phases. I always have down phases now and then when I peak again its a little higher than previously. That occurs each year now. So Ill hit some new size and strength records maybe at one period of the year, and then I wont be quite at that level and maybe even lose alot at some points. Then the next year I repeat again and hit a higher peak, etc. In the past I couldnt have dealt with this mentally. My mind wasnt conditioned like that. It was KILL THAT SHIT or die. Thats why I had to take 2 years off. I couldnt come back and train light at that time. I needed time to transform my perspective. To appreciate what I had done, what I was doing, more. Since the seven or so years ive been back from that lay off, Ive hit new size records each year (beyond the phase where I was just regaining old muscle, that took 2 years). It was that shift in perspective that allowed shit to continue as it has. If I trained merely for effictiveness it would be very different but the vent has always been my primary goal. The exorcism.

Unfortunately I dont really derive much satisfaction from this pursuit. I am way too harsh on myself. Consider myself always weak or small. My self perception is very warped and there is no possibility of finding satisfaction. I can get it sometimes in short bursts but nothing thats long lived.

I would say Im somewhat more at peace now after a good training session. Ive pretty much removed any stress related to failing lifts or not hitting as many reps on exercises. I dont really give a fuck about that anymore. Ive seen that it comes in phases, and its not just about losing muscle. It can be joint pain, muscle not recovered, diet, hydration, etc. I know now that muscle doesnt get lost over night. I think back then it did, but now its not like that.

The rage and hostility is permanent as far as I can tell. Its just about when Im focused on it or not. When Im out in public is when it flares up the most usually. I am way more numb now and often feeling nothing, just neutral, but there is still an intense rage that is just below the surface and extremely explosive, something that I have to keep under control. Since I dont emphathise or care about causing pain, its really only a part of myself that can keep that beast at bay. There is zero connection with other humans but there is a strong desire to inflict pain.

I try to keep my mental demons in control more now. The painkillers have kind of changed my brain chemistry, or something, to where ive become thicker skinned, but so has time and experience. A broader view on shit. Once you realize how superficial people are and weak minded, its hard to even get angry at times. When I do, its more like Im creating the anger by making people out to be worse than they really are. My mind is very good at that.

Ive always been humbled but I present myself in a volatile way to control that rage. By keeping people at a distance it lessens the chance that I will lash out. Thats worked best. I hold people in an extremely low regard. Not because Im not humble, but because I see the bullshit fake lives that people live and the fake masks they try to present. While I dont really interact with people in the outside world, aside from the very few I select, online I like to exchange conversation with like minded individuals. Most of that takes place in this journal with the few genuine posters Ive encountered.

Somewhat of a high after a training session. Thats also the painkillers too. Though at this dose I just feel more normal now than anything. Im not willing to keep upping the dose to maintain that buzz. I used to waste alot of energy getting psyched up for my lifts as well. The sessions were already super high volume and high intensity but I expended even more energy going wild before the lift. For a long time now Ive been able to turn most of that off, until right before the lift. As shown in the videos. That conserves alot more energy. So ive learned to expend that mental and physical energy alot more efficiently over the years.

Im always super tired. I believe my adrenals are burnt out or some shit.

Nice. Tilapia Ive found is very cheap and works great as well. Much cheaper than the salmon. Maybe less protein but you get alot.

My phone is pretty much dead now. Nothing really worth filming yet, but maybe in the next month or so. I should be replacing this shit soon.

KILL THAT SHIT !!

[CMC191]

Good stuff man. Im surprised you never took up any fighting. Boxing, mma and such... That would let you release some anger im sure... I used to be very hot headed, but ive learned to relax more since i have a family now i guess

[Walking Beast]

Good stuff man. Im surprised you never took up any fighting. Boxing, mma and such... That would let you release some anger im sure... I used to be very hot headed, but ive learned to relax more since i have a family now i guess

Appreciate that shit

Since I dont play well with others, fighting for me would be a fight to the death. Its not something I would do casually. Weight lifting was perfect for me because it didnt involve anyone else. I hate to deal with or be around people in general. Using a gym, unfortunately, have to deal with some bullshit but Im so zoned out I dont really notice anyone. Occasionally there is issues like some old man a few days ago, incinuating that I could be banned from the gym for overloading the stacks. Once I told him to fuck off he did, but there are always some flies that buzz around. Powerhouse was a better gym. 24 hour but I got my lifetime membership back at LA FITNESS for 60 bucks a year. So that is why I deal with that gyms bullshit. If I get banned then I would just train there or at the other LA FITNESS which is close by my house. Unless its a full ban, than powerhouse is very close. I just did it to save money for now. The gym is better anyway so its no loss. Strangely powerhouse only has 150 lb tricep stacks, as opposed to the 200-210 lb stacks at LA FITNESS. Everything else is overall better there though, including the hours. I can still overload a good amouunt of weight at powerhouse anyway. The 200 lb stacks are pretty much useless for me at this stage because I have hit 110 reps with it on curved bar pressdowns, rest pause style. I have alot of muscle endurance so the amount of volume to get that weight to feel heavy would be insane and a waste of time. Since I will be soon hitting 300 for 30 reps, even that is too light with the 2 45s pinned to the stack. The problem is that my elbow joints are pretty fucked up. So I cant really do any freeweight movements for triceps without alot of pain. I am pretty much stuck with doing curved bar or v bar cable pressdowns to train them. So I will not stop doing what Ive been doing. Its unfortunate that these casual gyms dont cater to weight lifters but I try to make the best out of what is available.

I used to be much worse but there was so much excess that I will never calm down until Im in the ground.

KEEP KILLIN THAT SHIT !!

[Walking Beast]

Completely forgot about the holiday. Dont celebrate shit, but it often catches me off guard with gym hours. Another area where powerhouse was better. Luckily it falls on my days off this week. Was most likely gonna take the next 2 days off anyway

KILL THAT SHIT

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Any holiday is just another day for me. I don't have family, so I remain alone with my cats. A big bargain for me, foodwise, is this Asian/American all-you-can-eat buffet. It's only $10.99. I eat at least 4 platefuls of food. It's almost always my only meal of the day, but I find that I gain weight and strength much easier by consuming this one meal over the course of two hours. I try to focus on protein (salmon, shrimp, beef) but I also get in my carbs and fats via rice, potatoes, sushi, veggies, and the infamous General Tso's Chicken. Oh, I also get a lot of sodium. The more sodium I consume, the better the muscle pump/growth. I don't have high blood pressure, so this type of meal is ideal for me.

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Do you work? What is your work week like? I can't see how you can have a job where you cannot interact with other people, especially with your intolerance with people. I retired from corporate America at age 51. I was driven to be different and leave the rat packs. I, too, cannot deal with the masses. I don't attend any family gatherings, and the few events I attend and try to socialize are those where there is a benefit dinner to help the person who is suffering. I always give the MAX I can afford to help the family where the family has suffered a loss, or where the children need food to eat. It's very satisfying...

This is how I try to compromise religion. Although, to be honest, there is NO GOD. IMHO.

[Walking Beast]

Do you work? What is your work week like? I can't see how you can have a job where you cannot interact with other people, especially with your intolerance with people. I retired from corporate America at age 51. I was driven to be different and leave the rat packs. I, too, cannot deal with the masses. I don't attend any family gatherings, and the few events I attend and try to socialize are those where there is a benefit dinner to help the person who is suffering. I always give the MAX I can afford to help the family where the family has suffered a loss, or where the children need food to eat. It's very satisfying...

This is how I try to compromise religion. Although, to be honest, there is NO GOD. IMHO.

Buffets are good. I used to abuse that shit. Now I prefer to eat everything at home. I dont like to see people. There are alot of jobs where you can work in the background, but Ill just keep it simple and leave it out of the journal. My purpose of this journal is to exchange training related information only. Im not one to make my information public. The few times Ive shown myself in public was to collect debts.

I wont start a religious war in here, but I definately disagree. The way I see it is shit doesnt operate the way it does by coincidence. It all begins from a creator. Ive had a few experiences which further cemented my faith, but never merely from reading a book.

KILL THAT SHIT !!

[moreps]

Good stuff.... I've zero probs with all you can eat buffets. I usually go with my 6 foot 6 inch Albany pro center for the FIREBIRDS,(Mark Bavaro) and on two occasions, they got nervous and asked us to leave. The next day, MarK set PR
We were once dismissed after eating for three hours,

[Walking Beast]

Good stuff.... I've zero probs with all you can eat buffets. I usually go with my 6 foot 6 inch Albany pro center for the FIREBIRDS,(Mark Bavaro) and on two occasions, they got nervous and asked us to leave. The next day, MarK set PR
We were once dismissed after eating for three hours,

Cant say I ever got kicked out of a buffet. I used to spend many hours in there though, with headphones on. I dont have the patience anymore to be around people that long, even with the distraction.

KILLLLLLLLLLLLL

[moreps]

Db laterals

no rest til line

60x15
50x10
45x10
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no rest til line

55x15
45x10
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5 mins cardio

KILL SHIT

Your delts must be very dense. Your strength on the laterals is fantastic. Are you doing them seated? Do like drop sets with laterals? I am thinking you improvise at the gym due to the crowd.

[Walking Beast]

Your delts must be very dense. Your strength on the laterals is fantastic. Are you doing them seated? Do like drop sets with laterals? I am thinking you improvise at the gym due to the crowd.

Appreciate that shit


Delts and upper legs are probably the densest muscles for me. Ive been going much lighter and also lower reps to give the shoulder joints a break. That movement is pretty harsh on my joints.

I do them standing. The way I do the movement it wouldnt really work seated. I focus on the burning in the delts and traps and trying to increase that as much as possible, while not fucking up my joints too much.

Its the only thing I really do now for traps or side delts. The traps are starting to come back up so its been working well as is.

This gym is usually a mess with the dumbbells. So depending on how they are scattered I will improvise. Luckily I dont work down the rack like I did before (from 100s down in 10 lb increments). That would be very hard to do here with shit everywhere

KILLLLLLLLL THAT SHIT !!

[Walking Beast]

Though I did do front dumbbell raises long ago, often supersetted with side laterals, I dont find them to be needed anymore. My front delts get so much stimulation from all the chest work, pressing. If youre hitting chest hard enough you really dont need it in most cases. I did train delts twice a week at certain phases when I was also hitting chest twice a week. So ive tried more frequent training as well. My best results were always on 4 training days a week. Using the rest days to eat and grow, mentally fire myself back up and visualize my next sessions. I find training too frequent to be like continuously peeling off a scab while its trying to heal. I dont believe in overtraining during a training session, but under eating and under recovering after the session, definately. Later in the day the muscle is going into repair mode, I believe, and its best to rest it once youve KILLED SHIT sufficiently. Ideal for me is 7 days from the last time I hit a muscle. I dont always do that but when I want to have the optimal recovery and strongest session possible, Ill wait 7 days between my sessions. Meaning if I hit chest on thursday, I wont hit it again til next thursday. Its not as important for me now because Im training more for the growth than strength, but I still utilize that.


Another exercise that I never see mentioned is Axe dumbbell raises. I find these to be one of the best exercises to really hit the delts (mainly the fronts and sides). They wont take the place of your chest pressing work, but they are very strict and give a constant painful tension in the muscle.

Axe raises are done with your palms facing in front of you (not facing the side of your legs like a dumbbell lateral). Keeping the palms facing in front of you, I would raise them up slowly and then often I would raise my arms above my head and touch them at the top (without pressing them). Range of motion is optional, but even if you dont go all the way above the head they hit the delts very hard. Much stricter movement than what I do with my dumbbell laterals, my style. Ive gone up to 50s or maybe 60s plus with these but cant remember with which weights I touched at the top. I did them very slow though. They are very tough on my shoulder joints now though so I havent done them in a long time

May want to give those a try though, for something different

I have posted NO PRESS shoulder routines in the past. All you really need for shoulders is some dumbbells. Side laterals, axe raises, maybe fronts if you need to take a break from pressing (working around injuries), dumbbell upright rows (or bars).

Same for traps. Dont need shrugs if you cant do them without alot of joint pain. The way ive modified the db laterals blows the fuck out of my traps. Though, of course, i had a shitload of muscle memory in them by the time I was using these as my main trap work (I had put in well over a decade of extremely heavy groundwork). So I would still say shrug if you can because those are the best for direct trap work. High volume, failure, super heavy.

I learned about the axe raises very late into my training, maybe within the last 4 or 5 years, so they were never a consistant staple of my training. Too much joint strain by that point. I was impressed with the amount of muscle pain they caused throughout the entire range of the movement though, and how strict they were.

The key for me has always been to find the exercises that I feel the most and really go fucking wild with them. Volume wise I mean. The intensity was always pretty evenly dispersed. Thats why my volume would be very high on certain exercises where others got fewer sets. Its always good to experiment to find what those movements are for your structure.

KILL THAT SHIT

[moreps]

Though I did do front dumbbell raises long ago, often supersetted with side laterals, I dont find them to be needed anymore. My front delts get so much stimulation from all the chest work, pressing. If youre hitting chest hard enough you really dont need it in most cases. I did train delts twice a week at certain phases when I was also hitting chest twice a week. So ive tried more frequent training as well. My best results were always on 4 training days a week. Using the rest days to eat and grow, mentally fire myself back up and visualize my next sessions. I find training too frequent to be like continuously peeling off a scab while its trying to heal. I dont believe in overtraining during a training session, but under eating and under recovering after the session, definately. Later in the day the muscle is going into repair mode, I believe, and its best to rest it once youve KILLED SHIT sufficiently. Ideal for me is 7 days from the last time I hit a muscle. I dont always do that but when I want to have the optimal recovery and strongest session possible, Ill wait 7 days between my sessions. Meaning if I hit chest on thursday, I wont hit it again til next thursday. Its not as important for me now because Im training more for the growth than strength, but I still utilize that.


Another exercise that I never see mentioned is Axe dumbbell raises. I find these to be one of the best exercises to really hit the delts (mainly the fronts and sides). They wont take the place of your chest pressing work, but they are very strict and give a constant painful tension in the muscle.

Axe raises are done with your palms facing in front of you (not facing the side of your legs like a dumbbell lateral). Keeping the palms facing in front of you, I would raise them up slowly and then often I would raise my arms above my head and touch them at the top (without pressing them). Range of motion is optional, but even if you dont go all the way above the head they hit the delts very hard. Much stricter movement than what I do with my dumbbell laterals, my style. Ive gone up to 50s or maybe 60s plus with these but cant remember with which weights I touched at the top. I did them very slow though. They are very tough on my shoulder joints now though so I havent done them in a long time

May want to give those a try though, for something different

I have posted NO PRESS shoulder routines in the past. All you really need for shoulders is some dumbbells. Side laterals, axe raises, maybe fronts if you need to take a break from pressing (working around injuries), dumbbell upright rows (or bars).

Same for traps. Dont need shrugs if you cant do them without alot of joint pain. The way ive modified the db laterals blows the fuck out of my traps. Though, of course, i had a shitload of muscle memory in them by the time I was using these as my main trap work (I had put in well over a decade of extremely heavy groundwork). So I would still say shrug if you can because those are the best for direct trap work. High volume, failure, super heavy.

I learned about the axe raises very late into my training, maybe within the last 4 or 5 years, so they were never a consistant staple of my training. Too much joint strain by that point. I was impressed with the amount of muscle pain they caused throughout the entire range of the movement though, and how strict they were.

The key for me has always been to find the exercises that I feel the most and really go fucking wild with them. Volume wise I mean. The intensity was always pretty evenly dispersed. Thats why my volume would be very high on certain exercises where others got fewer sets. Its always good to experiment to find what those movements are for your structure.

KILL THAT SHIT

Great post..... I also like to do axle raises. I start with the DB's behind my back and come up just shy of touching to help keep continuous tension on the delts, while providing a greater range of motion. I, too, do zero front raises. Weighted dips really hits the anterior delts very hard. As well as the chest, tri's, and even the abs and core.

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Forgot to ask.... Do you use creatine? I find that I gain more muscular weight with 5 grams of creatine per day, along with 3 grams of HMB. Probably the best stack I've ever used. I've never done pro hormones or any other stuff, but these two supplements used together, gives me very noticeable strength and size gains. Creatine monohydrate is cheap too. I pay only $8.99 for a 600 gram bottle. What was your diet like yesterday?

[Walking Beast]

Nice. Weighted dips or dips in general fuck with all my upper body joints so I dont do them anymore. I used to pile plates on my lap or use weight chained to my waist.

I just started creatine a few days ago. 5 grams but only have been taking it on my training days. 4 times a week. So Ive only taken it a few days so far and not every day. It gives me acid so I just mix it in with my pre workout. I tend not to take it otherwise because no supplement is worth missing meals over for me.

This was yesterdays diet

12-31-14 wednesday 150 mg rantidine ,150 50 mg tramadol,50,50




ate


tuna for first meal,(80)(dates)(81)(peanuts,root beer pop)(97)(21 oz milk)(118)(21 oz milk)(139)(cold coffee)(145)12 oz


shrimp for second meal,(223)(6 tablespoons aminos)(253)(banana)(254)

Pretty low calorie but the protein was a little higher than usual. I got some cheap flavored generic creatine, vitacost's brand, same with the liquid aminos, on vitacost.com.

I had it there for many months but forgot about it since I was on a long break. I dont use many supplements consistantly anymore due to all the acid it gives me. I can sneak it in with my preworkouts though.

I wasnt even using the Xtend aminos I had left over, because it gives me acid during training and fucks up my session, the acid lasts long too.


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