Walking Beast's Journal

[Walking Beast]

Good luck, man. Eventually, you will figure all this shit out and make continued gains and progress with strength and gains. I have zero doubts about that.

Appreciate that shit


I think its going to take alot of adapting. Im running low on solutions at this stage, but the two things I havent really tried is losing this gut or cutting out the tramadol or even lowering caffiene intake. I still tend to eat big meals too. With a hiatal hernia that is probably not good. Right now the acid is suffocating, even when I eat very little, so its been a real fucking bitch to deal with. Only getting worse with time. I will have to keep tweaking shit and eventually just say fuck it and lean out. Just bores the fuck out of me to do. Its time soon though, because I never cleaned up any gut fat I gained from injury breaks over the years. Just kept coming back and going into mass gaining mode.

Around my navel right now, my gut is at 41 1/2 inches. Waist is 38. Within a day it can vary alot due to IBS. My gut bloats several inches a day just from my food intake. So sometimes its 43 around navel and 39 or over around waist. My chest is around 53 again and should be back up at 54 plus soon. And shoulder circumference is maybe in the 58-60 range at full size. So it might appear that my waist isnt that big, but its just much smaller then my upper body mass. Keep in mind I had a 105-115 lb frame at the same height when I started. My waist was caved in back then. So carrying all this mass pushing on my organs is not something my structure has ever dealt with. I think cutting down the waist and gut would alleviate a good deal of that pressure pushing the acid up. Just a theory though. Not much else for me to try at this point.

KEEP KILLIN THAT SHIT !!

[Walking Beast]

Creatine gives me a very slight edge, about 5 lbs of bodyweight and maybe some extra endurance, but I think I need to remove that from my diet as well. I havent done beta alanine for a long time either , even though it gives me great muscle endurance. All that shit gives me bad acid. I think that 200 mg of test cypionate weekly (my replacement dose) is more than sufficient for me to make continued gains, especially at my stage of having a slower metabolism and alot of muscle memory. I was adding the creatine to my pre workout recently. Would love to do 3000-6000 mgs arginine as my uncle swears by that shit, and at 56 is looking thick still at 240. Gave me some fire to get back into the shit. Though I will probably avoid all supplements for the most part now. Unless things change. If I decide to lean then maybe ill throw in some caffiene pills.

I am also going to train now without the pre workout and try to possibly remove that as well. So I may be on zero supps except the test replacement. I was never big on supps anyway. Food to me has always been king, that and consistancy all around of course. The pre workout can give me dry heaving fits that last very long and causes definate throat constriction and acid. I would just ignore it.

I need to focus on the basics now. Food and training. Thats it really. Ive gained easily on 400 mg test in the past, and make great gains on 600. I never really needed to go to 900. Its just the mentality of more being better. I think even 200 will be good for consistant long term gains. It also keeps my test levels in good range, since they are shit without replacement these days.

My energy levels seem better already from the test.

Going to train some arms now without any additional stims. I had 2/3 of a monster drink and a cold coffee earlier, but no pre workouts today. Going to try and eliminate them possibly.

I may be able to get a shake down when I return and some fish later. Had mostly milk today (42 ounces) , a pork sandwhich, and little else. The shake will have 64 protein (yesterdays remnants) and then maybe 4 tilapia patties if I can get it down. Nothing major but well see

Doesnt take much these days to grow

KILL THAT SHIT

[Walking Beast]

Keep in mind the last time I trained anything was about 2 months ago. Last time I trained arms was 12-27-14 .


Ill post the occasional session


Today I trained without the pre workout stims. As I thought, the pre workout JACKED has been doing nothing for me. None of the pre workouts have been doing anything for me but give me acid. Caffiene hardly phases me or does anything anymore but throat constriction and acid.

So my training was no less energetic. I just dont have my strength back yet since this is my first arm session in 2 months, and only been back training a few days. Prior to those 2 months I had a 6 month break. So 2 months ago I was still well under my best. Ive trained 2 months in about 10 months.

So it will come back quick. I couldve still hit 300 lbs tricep pressdowns for reps, but stuck with the 210 lb stack for 35 reps. Gym was fucking crowded and didnt want to deal with it today

Arms are around 18 cold since I kept most of the size from my 2 months training (after the 6 month break), still an inch and a half off of my best. The chest measurement is maybe off by an inch or two. All that shit will come back quickly.

It just comes down to grinding through all the pain, numbness and choking now and working around it and through it.

215 lbs after meal (eating was very low yesterday due to FUCKED up acid, that carried on today)


Kept it light, just wanted to get some blood in the shit


NEW EXERCISE

Alternating Dumbbell Curls ,twist dumbell so palms face you then twist dumbell so palms face forward, descend down in a reverse curl negative, repeat

(basically a reverse curl on the negative portion, got this from my uncle)

35x ?? Didnt count
45x5
35x10

Curved Bar Pressdowns

KILOGRAMS for all triceps pressdowns

no rest til line

35x100
65x30
95x10 (200-210 lb stack)
45x8-10 alternating db curls
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No rest til line

95x35 (full stack again)
72x20
57x20
45x8-10 alt db curl
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DB Hammer curls

45x10

V Bar pressdowns (fucks with wrist more, but other bar went missing, no wrist pain today though)

no rest til line

KILOS again

35x40
72x10
45x6 alt db curls

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no rest til line

95x15
72x10
57x10
45x6 alt db curls
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No rest til line

95x10
72x10
57x10
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45x6-8 alt db curls

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Incline db curl (full stretch, mostly slow)

40x12

no rest til line

50x5
40x4 alt db curl
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No rest til line

50x6
30x6 alt db curl

Free motion cable curl

45x15

alternating db / Reverse curl negative (same as first exercise)

40x5


10 mins cardio

Acid starting to flare up again, but better during training today without the pre workout

KILL SHIT

[Walking Beast]

Growth is coming pretty quick. Already in my first week or so of training, arms are around 18 1/4 (largest arm). After yesterdays arm session. My protein has been around 150 or so , sometimes higher, and calories not real high either. So the muscle memory should come back within a few weeks, mostly. Its not uncommon for me, after a good arm or leg session, that my legs or arms will have grown the next day. Its not temporary inflammation because my muscles actually measure smaller most of the time , an hour or two after training (theyre shredded up and dont flex fully is my guess). Once I hit an increase it tends to show a trend of upward growth. Of course there is always fluctuations, they just start to fluctuate on the higher end. My low measurement becomes what was once my high measurement, etc.

Looks like I may switch back to the pantaprozole ant acid med. I was trying other meds because I get two bad side effects from this med. Nausea (really got to time my training around that shit, possibly take it after training), and bad joint pain (all joints). As a weight lifter those side effects are not good, otherwise it wouldnt bother me, but it beats constantly gagging and choking on acid, even in sleep. Adapting is definately a process, but thats always the case with any new obstacles. Such is life.

KILL THAT SHIT

[Walking Beast]

Best eating day in a while. Nothing crazy , more like what a normal day should look like. The pantaprozole allowed me to get all this down I believe. So despite the sides I may stay on the shit. Though I do remember the effectiveness wearing off when I stayed on. But I will see


21 oz milk(21)french toast sticks for first meal, (29)4 tilapia filets for second meal, (109)(21 oz milk)(sherbert)(131)
(bag of sunflower seeds)(143)(cold coffee)(149)can of beef and bean chili for third meal, (181)(cold coffee)(6 tablespoons amino acids)(21 oz milk)(238 protein)

Low calories, but still more cals and protein then I need to get back my old size, as Ive been eating around 150 or so protein , sometimes sub 100 and still gaining my size back. Calories have also been low. The tilapia is real easy to digest and should make a huge difference with my protein though. Shrimp got way too expensive. The protein shakes Ill drink whenever I can and have 100 grams of protein always pre mixed. That way I can get it down during the spaces where acid isnt too excessive.

Minor openings are all I really need to taste that blood again and exploit any opportunities to work through and around these obstacles. Just need to relearn my diet and eating routines. Im always thankful for the seemingly minor shit like that. Just being able to eat a decent amount of food. After drowning in acid 24/7 for several years, that is good to see. I will see how the meds hold up to a weight lifting diet and time. My plan now is to implement this shit in a less consuming way. So I wont be busting my ass with eating for now, but I will get in what I can. Its really not needed during this phase of regaining. Ill figure out what needs to be done as I do it. So far the shakes are super easy (when acid isnt bad) and tilapia is extremely easy to digest and get down, quick as well. The more foods that work, the larger my arsenal to deal with the issues. So Ill keep experimenting. Insects seemed promising, being so light and high protein. Turned out to be super expensive though. So fuck that.

Half a gallon of milk today. Thats much easier for me to get down and much more calorie dense then protein shakes, so that will be a staple. I will use milk as often as possible. The hydration doesnt hurt either, and calcium. Milk isnt as protein dense as a shake but the extra calories are more useful. High protein to me is useless without sufficient calories. Some of my best muscle gains were when I drank a half gallon of milk daily and consistantly ontop of my meals. It performed much better than solid food alone for me.

Since I dont really drink other liquids, aside from a monster drink some days and cold coffees (small ones), the milk will give me some hydration too as mentioned. The monster drinks now are becoming more infrequent. Since Im trying to keep acid at bay so I can eat more now. They do increase hunger when my acid is more controller, if not it just makes it worse. So it depends if I will continue to utilise that.

KILL THAT SHIT

[Walking Beast]

Just had 6 tilapia filets for my first meal, 21 oz milk prior and a cold coffee, which puts my protein around 150 early in the day. I didnt realize how fucking easy fish is to get down. I couldve eaten the 2 lb bag easy in one sitting as I dont feel full at all after the 6 filets. Its only a little over 700 calories maybe , with the olive oil on it. 6 filets was one pound.

So I am definately finding some very good solutions. Had I know this shit back in the years I used to force dry chicken breast down for hours with baked potatoes, I would have never touched that shit. I was always fucking stubborn but its good to see theres much easier ways to get shit done, then what ive grinded through over the years. Now with my fucked digestion I need to find the best alternatives. The tilapia has been cheap and super easy to get down so far. Its more a matter of how much can I afford to consistantly eat it, then how much I can consume.

Should be extremely useful. The milk has not been problematic either. Ive also been taking 6 tablespoons of the liquid aminos before sleep. The protein powder I keep 100 grams mixed in the fridge, but alot of times Im forced to do it all in whole food depending on acid levels in throat. Which ive been doing for years anyway. The pantaprozole has been working the last 2 days so I will probably just deal with the side effects. I am thinking to try a joint supp for the joint pain this med causes. Never got results with glucosamine but may try it again. Never stuck with it.


May hit back in an hour.


KILL SHIT

[CMC191]

tilapia is very easy to eat. I can eat fish all day long and not be full

[Walking Beast]

Nice. Ive used salmon before but this shit was especially tender. After eating a pound it actually made me hungrier rather than full. Really comes down to experimentation. Can make shit so much easier sometimes.

Im about to hit some back but without the pre workout stims. Did the same yesterday. Im having some of a monster tea for a little caffiene but thats it.

I could eat only this fish for my protein and have no issues there. Calories being the only thing to really need tweaking over time, as I grow and exceed my old limits

My protein could be done with in a meal or two with the tilapia. Add the milk between meals and carb heavy snacks, some protein when I feel like it and things should come along very quickly again. Slow metabolism, replacement test, muscle memory, etc. It all works together

Im open to any protein source, even insects as mentioned. A bag of crickets was super fucking expensive, so fuck that. Crocodile meat and various types of jerky were way over priced too. Even regular style beef jerky. So its expensive to experiment with other lesser used sources unless you KILL THAT SHIT yourself



KILL THAT SHIT

[CMC191]

Any updates??

[CMC191]

and insects sounded horrible lol

[Walking Beast]

and insects sounded horrible lol

Was about to order a bag of crickets until I saw the price. Not sure why insects would be so fuckin expensive but fuck it.

Eating has been pretty consistant. Yesterday was only about 80 grams of protein but overall Ive been hitting around 200 grams since ive been back.

I havent been drinking alot of shakes as planned due to all the acid they cause. It seems I can get 2 scoops of whey in right after training without too much issue. Seems to digest faster then. Ive been using alot of milk and tilapia though.


Training hasnt been bad either, as strength and size is coming back rapidly. This is only maybe my second or third chest session (second or third week back) and it was decent

I havent been posting up regularly but am training 3 to 4 times a week. I trained 3 times last week and gave legs a break since my hamstrings have been painfully tight just walking and back of knees, which effects any leg movements.

This was yesterdays rehab session


215 lbs before meals (pissed an insane amount yesterday, maybe the two monster drinks)








Incline Hammer Strength press (3/4 reps, more ballistic. All the way down and just short of lockout.)




90x60 warm up
180x30
270x20
360x6


no rest til line


410x3
360x1
320x3-4
270x6-8
230x??
180x??
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Wide Chest Hammer strength Press (3/4 reps again)
180x20
270x10


No rest til line


320x3-4
270x4-5
180x10
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Db laterals


45x40


no rest til line


70x15
65x5
35x10-15


Dumbbells were all over the fucking gym, this was all I could find


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Seated Fly Machine


310x14 (mostly very fast, slamming handles together, few holds at the end)
425x5 (Long holds. Quite strong for just getting back, also shows how much easier this machine is for me then the other
location which has a machine which looks identical to me. Might be older)




No rest til line


Most long holds again


425x5
380x3
335x3
310x4-5
230x5
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(2 45's and 1 25 added to stack as usual, but strong for just coming back. )


Hammer Strength MTS Shoulder Press (pin loaded)


120x30 (60 lbs each side)
220x20
310x8 (stack on each side)


No rest til line


310x6
260x3
220x3
180x3-5
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DB laterals


40x30


HS Iso lateral Shoulder press (plate loaded)


180x12
180x14 (brief rest pause)




Strength/size should come back quick if I dont get too wild and balance the training and eating like I have been



Grip strength is coming back too as I had to tilt the dumbbells and hang them off my hands somewhat to hit the heavier laterals last week, and this week grip was fine.

The 410 inclines and 425 held flies were the main highlights, showing that strength is coming back. I was going up to 580 on the inclines before but I would like to focus more on building for a while. Well see though. Whenever strength comes back I get super agressive.

Joints felt suprisingly good today too. Being on the pantaprozole usually fucks them up. Slight nausea but not that bad considering I took the pantaprozole on an empty stomach. I did take 1 scoop of jacked prior to training. I was going to try and eliminate the stims pre workout, for the acid issues, but that really only works if I had a monster drink prior to training. Without any caffiene its very difficult to generate that type of training for me at this stage


KILL THAT SHIT

[CMC191]

As usual, great volume workout.. Good weight too. My appetite has been crazy lately, been soo damn hungry. I have been eating mostly protein and carbs only from about 7 am til 3 or 4:00 and i'm digesting the food so damn fast... At night i'm eating a big ass meal and it seems to be sitting well with me like this. Tilapia is so easy to eat, I used to get those 5 lb bags and cook it all up in one go and eat on it for 3 days or so.. Lately I've been eating 10 oz of ahi tuna for my post workout meal and it digests really fast with white rice and pineapple. You ever make your protein in a "sludge"?? I've seen people doing that a lot lately.. Kinda like a pudding, that may be easy on your acid??

[Walking Beast]

As usual, great volume workout.. Good weight too. My appetite has been crazy lately, been soo damn hungry. I have been eating mostly protein and carbs only from about 7 am til 3 or 4:00 and i'm digesting the food so damn fast... At night i'm eating a big ass meal and it seems to be sitting well with me like this. Tilapia is so easy to eat, I used to get those 5 lb bags and cook it all up in one go and eat on it for 3 days or so.. Lately I've been eating 10 oz of ahi tuna for my post workout meal and it digests really fast with white rice and pineapple. You ever make your protein in a "sludge"?? I've seen people doing that a lot lately.. Kinda like a pudding, that may be easy on your acid??

Appreciate that shit


Luckily the shoulder presses havent started to fuck with my shoulder joints yet. I havent done them directly in a while, of course this was still super light. When the pain is there it shows up with the lighter shit though too. So its a good sign. I may be doing direct should presses more often because lately the dumbbell rack is a complete fucking mess and the gym has become over crowded.

Thats why my dropsets were all over the place. I prefer dumbbell laterals , done in my form, to hit my traps and side delts. I dont do anything seperate for traps anymore. Shrugs fuck with the joints too much. So I will always try to get those in. I get enough presses from chest work.

Volume was moderate but not bad. Im trying to restrain in that area too. Once I get stronger again then the hard part will be not overkilling my shit with volume and heavy weight. Im looking into movements that wont make my hands fall asleep every 5 minutes when trying to do something. Lat pullovers hammerstrength seated machine (plate loaded) hits the back great but the pads are starting to rub against the lats bad causing friction as I get wider again. There is also the standing version with a straight bar. Rowing and curling seem like the biggest issues that cause the hand numbness to flare the most (the falling asleep hands particularly). Triceps maybe too, but Im not sure. Ill see when I add plates to the stack again. So Im experimenting with ways to switch it up.

I go through phases like that too sometimes where my stomach is constantly hungry. I still have to force feed because I dont care about the physical hunger, I just hate to eat. I can easily ignore it. Sometimes my stomach will have alot of room and constantly crave more though. I try to take advantage of that. One thing I use is monster teas. They give me a little energy and make me quite hungry for some reason. I can usually take down a big meal after one of those.

I usually only prepare my food in the moment, but sometimes I will cook and extra pound of tilapia and store it in the fridge for my next meal.

I got some dollar packs of turkey bacon at "Deals" as well. Which I like to mix in sometimes. I mostly get my carb and calorie filler at that store. Tons of dollar items.

My protein I get mostly at walmart. It might be good to join a warehouse again for that as well.

Never really tried making the protein into a pudding. Though I may have eaten it before when I didnt use enough water. Pudding or yogurt usually doesnt go down right for me, so it probably wouldnt help.

KILL THAT SHIT

[Walking Beast]

Arms

Ill post some sessions in here for now


Third week back I believe. Maybe second. Not really keeping track. Strength wasnt bad considering Ive only trained 2 months in the last 10 months or so. This is after another 2 month break. So it will come back fast. I should break into 30s again with the 300 lb pressdowns soon.

More focused now on size over the strength now but I always train progressively. So there will be atleast a few exercises where I focus on hitting new PRs specifically. Its also part of what forces new size as well.

Joint pain is low for my upper body so far. Ill see if this ant acid med, and the training makes it more severe in the coming weeks.

Low volume and light overall


217 lbs before meals , Took a scoop of jacked and 5 grams creatine pre workout. Still using stims as needed.


Curved Bar Pressdowns

No rest til line

KILOGRAMS for triceps unless noted

35x100
65x40
95x10 (210 lb stack)

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No rest til line

300 lbs x 21 (2 45's pinned to stack. See video. Should break 30 again soon)
255 lbs x10
95 kilos x10
72x10
57x10
40x15 alternating dumbbell curls
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No rest til line

Pressdowns again

300 lbs x10
40x12 alternating db curls
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No rest til line

Pressdowns again

300 lbs x16
255 lbs x10
95 kilos x10
72x10
40x10 alt db curls
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Alt db curls

60x6

No rest til line

300 lbs x16
255 lbs x5-8
95 kilos x10
40x12 alt db curls
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No rest til line

95 kilos x25
72x10
40x6-7 Alternating db curls with a reverse curl negative (twist palms toward face for positive portion, twist hands facing front for negative)


ALt db curls

60x5

Incline db curls

40x12

Alt db curls with reverse curl negatives

40x7

alt db curls

no rest til line

60x4
50x4
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Freemotion Bicep curl machine

130x9
130x8

Holds

Very light for biceps overall but strength will come back quick

KILL SHIT

[Walking Beast]